OMG WORLD, yet another post to complain… I’m getting so tired of my narrative being complaining but here I am so passionate about what I do and nobody is meeting me there. I feel like I’m having to pull a lot of the mental weight and I am already in three classes and one of them is triggering and I think I’ll have to go to therapy from a trauma based counselor because I have a clear inability to maintain relationships (might go into that later, might not) and then keeping track of what I eat and making sure I’m not eating too much.
What spurred this on is that our classroom this year is chaos. For example, we have a new TA with a seizure-prone kid. His seizures can be disassociative, or as intense as grand mal ones. When he’s tired you HAVE to watch his face. The TA-wanna-be-a-basketball-coach watches his phone more than his face. Another TA doesn’t even stick by their kid (his was found rummaging through someone’s unlocked car during the fire drill. Our teacher snap chatted it and laughed). Then it was “Oh no we have to focus ALL OF OUR ATTENTION on our highly violent kid because he punched the teacher really hard and now she’s scare of him” and said teacher doesn’t even pay attention to the transitional kid to the point that she texts me asking how he did the past two weeks because she’s never came in there once to check on him.
In the spirit of things being crazy I sent a text to 6 people today. 6. and I said “Hey, how about we do morning meetings before the kids get here – and they can be once a week, once a month, and regroup and coach how to handle past events better.” Neither of the certified teachers responded, and even though I told the other 4 NOT to respond BECAUSE it was a group text and most people hate those, but I just said “Don’t respond directly to this thread” I.E. “TEXT ME BACK DIRECTLY INSTEAD”. did anyone? No. Nope. Sure didn’t.
And there I am writing the behaviors protocol for one of our other intense kids albeit higher functioning and I keep asking HER teacher of record “Did you read it, is it okay? Did you give all her NEW TAS (who don’t have a CLUE how to get along with her) her behavior sheets?” And he’s just like “Oh yeah I’ll read it at lunch”
Fuck of ALL of them, I’m not going to care about a damn thing now unless it’s directly my responsibility. I’ll try not to anyway. None of this even made me feel better.